Because It's Delicious

 I will say that the reason why I am not eating as healthy as I should, is because only the unhealthy food is delicious. I do not know why healthy food is not also delicious and preferable. It seems, only the unhealthy food is delicious and preferable. I already know that I need to eat healthier food. And I already know that I should not eat so much food. But, I still do. Maybe it's because I think I deserve it. But, the bottom line is, because it's delicious. 

I could spend the rest of my life eating unhealthy and delicious food, just so that I can be happy. Or, I can live a longer and healthier life, eating healthier food. Even if it means that I am not happy with it. I would say that most people will spend their whole life eating unhealthy food, because it makes them happy and because it's delicious. I do not want to be a statistic. I do not want to be like most people, that spend their entire life eating unhealthy food, and being unhealthy, just because the food is delicious. 

At the same time, I do not want to spend my life eating food that is not delicious. Maybe I should just eat string beans or peas or corn right out of the can. But that is not a happy life. That is the life of a lonely hermit. Yes, of course I want to be happy. And of course I want to eat delicious food. Because it's delicious, of course. But I have to think about my health also. Damn you life the way you are! I hate it! If only healthy food can be delicious too. Or maybe I need to think outside the soup can, so to speak. 

Maybe I need to find ways to make the healthy food delicious. Well, if there is a way to make healthy food delicious, then I'm sure that lots of people are already doing it. But they're not. But, that does not mean I will not try. I will try to make healthy food delicious. And, most importantly, I will control how much food I eat. People will say, it is not so much the type of food that you are eating. It is because of how much food you are eating. But honestly, I don't know what to believe. I just know that I need to work on both factors. Eating the right foods, and eating the right amount of those foods. Too much food, or the wrong foods, and you are living an unhealthy life for the rest of your life. 

Do the right thing
-Stephen

Enough Sleep

1/08/2025 8:30 AM

My mind is running 100% now. I imagine it is because I have enough sleep. It could also be a combination of what type of foods I have been eating, and the vitamins I have been taking. I really don't know. I'm not a real doctor. I just pretend to be one in this Journal Entry. You can call me Dr. Feelgood.  Yes, I'm the one they call Dr. Feelgood. But! As always! This is only a temporary feeling. I already know from experience, that this does not last. 

I would love this feeling to be permanent, but I do not know how to do that. There has been times in the past that I have eaten all the right foods, exercise, taking all of my vitamins everyday, and slept enough, and I still do not feel as good as I feel today. And so, maybe I should become a doctor, just so that I can understand how it all works. The science. The chemistry. The formula. The algorithm? 

Well, whatever it is, and whatever I need to figure out, it certainly is not worth becoming a doctor to do it. I think it is better, if I just explore using Google or ChatGPT, to try to find the answer I am looking for, how to feel this good everyday. Remember, ChatGPT now has voice conversation. This makes it easier than ever to have a conversation with AI, and try to figure out the right combination of sleep, vitamins, exercise, and healthy foods, so that I can feel this good everyday. Although, it is different for each person of the world, so that's going to be very hard to determine. 

Unless! I explained in detail, the type of foods I am eating, the vitamins I am taking, how much sleep I'm getting, and how much exercise I am doing, to the AI, so that ChatGPT can use that information to determine exactly what I need to do, to change my lifestyle and the things that I do and eat, so that I can feel this good everyday. Maybe 🤔 

11:30 AM

My mental focus has declined. I'm not sure why. But, I need to find out 😐

12:30 AM 

I believe that the reason why I think that my mental focus is declining, is because I'm trying to think about too many things at one time. I think I need to just write down my thoughts into my notes, so that I can forget about them, or at least sort them, so that I am not exceeding my mental capacity which I think is the reason why I think that my mental focus is declining. This, of course, is just a hypothesis. A guesstimation. A theory. Because, I honestly do not know why my mental focus is declining. Although, I do know that I am trying to think, study, articulate, too many thoughts at one time.

Stephen

What Matters Most

 

Wednesday, July 31st, 2024

Priorities. Yes! I have been going over in my mind, what matters the most. My priorities. What are they? I am very interested in growing my blog, Social Stephen, and writing my book, Kenny Kinesis, but I must consider my priorities. Right now, my priorities are growing the blog on my website. And, email marketing.  I have also been looking into new ways to streamline the blogging process. It's just a matter of time until I will have a foolproof system to make blogging a streamlined routine. 

Next? Yes! You guessed it! Streamline the email marketing process. I must develop a foolproof, streamlined system that will allow me to find topics, content, and advertisements that can be included in the emails that I send. Yes! Get the ball rolling and keep it rolling.  This is going to take some research, learning, and formulating a plan. But, I know that I can do it. I have the drive, the ambition, and the passion to make it all happen. Of course, I will take notes and even draw a mind map, that shows, visually, what needs to be done, step by step, from beginning to end. 

Angry Birds makes me angry 😠

I have been playing Angry Birds Showdown on YouTube Playables. It was very enjoyable in the beginning. But, all of my power-ups are gone. There is no way of getting more power-ups. Yes, I can get 3 measly power-ups, with the daily reward, but that isn't squat.  The people I am playing against, in the game, seem to have a never ending supply of power-ups. There is no shop. I do not know of any other way to get power-ups, besides the daily reward. It makes me so angry. Even more angry than the birds themselves. 

There is no communication within the game. I have no way of talking to my rivals. I don't know how they're getting so many power-ups. I searched thoroughly for a store or a shop where I can buy power-ups. None, nada, zero, zilch. There are no advertisements. I'm happy about that, but at the same time, if I watched an ad, I can earn power-ups. But, that doesn't exist either. I am at a complete loss. I looked it up on Google, but did not find any results about that. But, I am not one to give up. I'm going to keep on searching, until I find out how my rivals are getting so many power-ups. What am I overlooking? What am I missing? What do I have to do to get more power ups? 🤔

Stephen

Friday Afternoon

Friday, July 19th, 2024

It's Friday! Well, no reason to celebrate. I'm working tomorrow too. I don't normally work on Saturdays, but I'm doing it tomorrow. I will probably be hauling asphalt to some faraway land. But either way, it's very good money. Lots of overtime. And I'm very happy about that. I'm still working on my retirement. Even though driving a dump truck is relatively easy work, I don't want to do it for the rest of my life. And so, I started an e-commerce website. linkpost.me. And that is going to be my nest egg. Along with email marketing. And any other type of income that I would enjoy working on at home. 

In the meantime, it is slow going. A very slow progress. But, I am learning a lot about SEO. I know that I need to blog. On my website and independent blogs. And, with the help of AI, I will be able to do that. The only thing missing now is topics and more time. It's just too bad I don't have more help. Seriously. If I just had one other person to help me with blogging, while I kept my full-time job, then I would be able to earn money and pay the bills, while building wealth in online business. Both in e-commerce and email marketing.

Stephen

It Happened Again

This is becoming the norm. The shuttle buggy is broke down again. And, here I sit, in the cab of this dump truck, with a load of hot asphalt. Among all the other trucks in line, also loaded with asphalt, waiting to dump out. Rain is coming. Yes, that is also becoming the norm here. It seems that it rains every day here. Worse than the wetlands. Worse than the swamps. Worse than the rainforest. The rain does not always hit the job site, but it definitely gets close. It makes it very hard to get this job finished. With all the rain, and a barely working shuttle buggy, this job is taking forever. But all I could do is deal with it. 

Update: They have removed the basket from the spreader machine. They are going to park the shuttle buggy, and we are going to dump directly into the spreader machine. This is also starting to become the norm. Don't get me wrong. I'm not complaining. I get paid the same, regardless of what happens. I'm just sharing my thoughts, and nothing more. At this rate, I might get one more load after this, and call it a day. And then, of course, the long drive back home. It is 151 p.m. now, I might get back to the shop by 5:30 p.m. give or take. 

I have the energy to stop at walmart, after work, and shop for rubber wristbands. I just hope I find what I'm looking for.  And of course, while I am at walmart, I am also going to buy some ground beef and some other ingredients for my dinner this evening. Instead of shredded cheese on my burger, I'm going to try cheese slices instead. It should taste better than the shredded cheese. It sucks being alone. But, at least I get to do what I want, when I want, without dealing with anyone else. 

I don't always make the best decisions for my health and my life. There are many times, that I choose happiness over health. I choose delicious food over healthy food. I admit that. I am self-disciplined in a lot of things, but eating the right foods is not one of them. I guess I'm still working on that. One thing I am certain of. Eating poor tasting, healthy food is sad and depressing. I'm already alone everyday, and the only happiness I get is from eating delicious food. Okay, that's just not true. I guess I'm venting right now. There are other things that make me happy too. 

I enjoy watching a good movie. I enjoy watching videos on YouTube. I enjoy blogging and web design. I enjoy learning more about e-commerce. I enjoy writing in my journal. I enjoy chatting with intelligent people. It is rare, but it does happen sometimes. I'm learning more about AI now. How we can benefit me with blogging on my independent blog and my e-commerce blog. And now, I guess I'm mixing happiness with contentedness. They are not interchangeable. But they can feel the same on the outside looking in. 

Stephen

Another Day Another Breakdown

Tuesday, July 16th, 2024 

Another day on the job, on highway 80, in Bellamy, Alabama. Paving the road. The shuttle buggy broke down. We have already been sitting here in line, with loads of asphalt, waiting to dump out, for the past 90 minutes. Finally, they decide to park the shuttle buggy, and now we are dumping straight into the paver machine. And I told the other drivers, on the CB radio, if push comes to shove, we will dump straight into the paver machine. And sure enough, that is what we are doing. 

On another note, I am tired of fighting with these rubber bands on my wrists. I wanted to go to Walmart yesterday, and buy some wristbands, but, I was much too tired. Hopefully, I will have the energy to go to Walmart today, after work, I just need two freaking wristbands for right now. The rubber bands that are on my wrist right now are old, frail, and falling apart. I just hope that the wristbands that I buy at walmart, are not too loose or too tight. 

On another note, the company finally took down the backwards American flag that was hanging up in front of the silos at the new asphalt plant. I am thankful for that. Because, despite the fact that I told my boss that the flag is backwards, he did not change it. He just left it like that. Until yesterday evening, when they finally decided to take the flag down. I despise inconsideration and stupidity, but ignorance runs a very close third. 

Stephen

Typical Monday

Here we are again. Highway 80 in Bellamy, Alabama. Paving the road. And once again, some equipment broke down. This time, I think it is the shuttle buggy. But I'm not sure. All I know is that I am in line, with a load of hot asphalt, with the rest of the asphalt trucks, waiting to unload, for 3 hours now. 1:45 p.m. . I thought they fixed the problem and repaired the equipment. They unloaded one truck. And then they stopped again. Apparently, they tried to fix it with rubber bands and bubble gum. Because it is broke down again. 

So here I sit, in the cab of this truck, waiting to get back to work. Thinking about other things. The rubber bands on my wrists are getting frail and are breaking. And I am seriously considering switching from rubber bands to wristbands. If I can just find some wristbands that are meant for straight men and not women. But, let's back up. When I was just a boy, I accidentally thrusted my hand through a glass storm door. And my hand broke the thin glass, and a piece of jagged glass cut my arm all the way down, from my inner wrist, to my inner elbow.

When they stitched up my arm, they connected the stitches to my hand. And now, both of my wrists are very sensitive to the touch. And that is why I wear rubber bands on my wrists. Because it helps with the sensitivity. I can rub up against things such as the steering wheel of this truck, and it does not affect the sensitivity of my wrists. But, as I said before, my rubber bands are now getting old and frail. They are starting to break apart, and I would have to buy more rubber bands to replace them. 

So, my newest idea, is to get rid of the rubber bands completely, and get wristbands instead. I did some online shopping for wristbands, and I'm not impressed. I don't know why they are all bright colors. They look like gay pride wristbands. It's pathetic and ridiculous. I need to find some wristbands that are for a straight man. I will keep looking. 

Stephen

Hot And Sticky

Wednesday, July 10th, 2024 

Today, I am working in Bellamy again. I am hauling asphalt from the Demopolis asphalt plant to highway 80 in Bellamy. Only this time, things are different. The asphalt formula isn't right. It's too sticky. Much too sticky. It is a hot and sticky mess. All the drivers are complaining that the asphalt is sticking very bad to the inside of their bed of their truck. It seems, no matter what type of non-stick formula that we use, the asphalt sticks every time. This is going to be a big problem. All day long. 

Of course, I have only the best non-stick formula sprayed into the bed of this truck. But that does not guarantee that it will not stick. In fact, based on what the other drivers are saying, it is almost guaranteed that I am going to have a hot and sticky mess in the bed of this truck, after I dump out. But! All I can do is deal with it. Do my best, as always, to keep the asphalt from sticking to the bed of the truck. Even if I have to spray more of the non-stick formula for every load, than that is what I will do.

I have dealt with this before. Oh yeah! In fact, Just 2 years ago, we were repaving the Tuscaloosa airport. The asphalt was sticking like hot Taffy. It was very bad. With the bed all up in the air, the asphalt would very, very slowly roll down the bed, like those old sticky toys that you would throw at a window, and watch it slowly roll down the window. Wow! That brought back memories!

Update: 1 hour later. I don't know what the other drivers are complaining about. The asphalt is not sticking in the bed of the truck. 99% of it is sliding out. In fact, it is very easy to maintain. Just as easy as all the other times I have hauled asphalt to this job. There is nothing wrong with the formula. Everything is fine. Just another ordinary day, but this time the CB radio is filled with complaints and over exaggeration, obviously.

Moving on. I need to find an effective and inexpensive way to promote my website. Google isn't helping. When I use keywords such as URL shortener, I get what seems to be every other link shortening website except for mine in the Google search results. I definitely need to rethink the SEO keywords. I will use AI to create more comprehensive SEO keywords to use in my website and blog. Not that I think it would help, but it might. I just don't understand why Google will not index my domain name. It has to have https:// at the beginning of it, for it to show up in the search results.

And everyone knows that when people are searching for a domain name on google, they do not include the https:// in their search. It pisses me off so much that I cannot figure out why my domain name alone, is not in the Google search result. I do not know what needs to be done to stop it from doing that. I'm still bound and determined to find out though. I just need to do more research. I have already searched high and low, why a naked domain name does not show up on Google without the https:// in front of it. Cannot get any good results. And definitely no answers. 

I'm not giving up. I'm never giving up. I will keep trying until I get the answer.

Stephen

The Demopolis Asphalt Plant Broke Down Today

It was just an average day today, at work. Hauling asphalt from the Demopolis plant to highway 80 in Bellamy. And then, the asphalt plant broke down. All trucks, including me, parked for 2 hours, with nothing better to do, waiting for the asphalt plant to be fixed. We chatted on the CD radio for a while, but eventually it went silent. I play the game on my phone, and took some notes. Collaborated and transferred notes around. And now I am writing this. 

It is Friday, June 28th, 2024 and I am ready for the weekend. Julie has not called me yet, asking me if I will work tomorrow. But I am expecting that phone call. Of course, I will say yes, because I want and need the extra money. But I would rather have two days off work, to relax my mind and body.  On another note, so to speak, I finally chose a note taking program and app, as my default notes taking program and app. 

And, it wasn't what I was expecting at all. Microsoft OneNote. I know, right? It was the lowest on the totem pole. I never thought I would ever choose it. I still use ColorNote for quick notes on my homepage of my phone. But when it comes to writing my thoughts down, writing ideas down, tasks to do, yeah, Microsoft OneNote. It's the bomb. 

I weighed all the options. Looked at all the different features on all the different apps. And I couldn't believe it. Lowest on the totem pole. Shaking my head. Microsoft OneNote wins hands down. That app, that I thought was just too simple and had no features, is slap damn full of features, organization, and ease of use.

Stephen

Passing Around Stupid Pills

Someone is passing around stupid pills at work today. Honestly, I have not seen this much condensed amount of stupidity in one place. Tim could clearly see that there were 15 trucks front to back that needed to pull forward, before the spreader machine ran right up our ass. Did he go to his truck, and move his truck forward? 

No! He stood there talking to other drivers, while the spreader machine is running up our ass. So, I got out of my truck, and I said to him, we are packed in like rats here, please pull your truck forward. And he said, packed in like rats huh? 

I said, yeah! Do you see how close these trucks are to each other? Do you see that the spreading machine is coming up on a large group of trucks that are packed in tight together, very fast? Do you see that? Will you please pull forward. Finally! It's sunk in! And he walked to his truck and pulled his truck forward. 

I don't understand what type of convincing is needed, to trigger the common sense needed, to see that these trucks do not need to be packed in so closely like this. Pull forward! Spread out! Stop the damn spreader machine from running up the next truck's ass! Bushel baskets full of stupidity! 😡

On another note, it is Friday, May 10th, 2024. And I am ready for this day to be over. I am ready to start the weekend. I have some great plans that involve mean earning money. And, I'm going to learn, take notes, plan, organize, and take action. Absofreakinlutely!

Stephen

End Procrastination

Yes! I finally had the energy and ambition to take out the trash, and recycle the plastic, and wash my clothes at the laundromat. And so, now, all the trash cans are empty, the recycling container is empty, and all of my clothes are clean and put away.

And now, I'm just sitting here in my desk chair, listening to my upstairs neighbor making noise and just not giving a shit at all about his downstairs neighbor. Him and his fucked up son, just run around the upstairs and make noise like they're out of fucking gymnasium or something.

But that is the status quo. And soon, within just a few months, I'm going to be rid of that inconsiderate piece of shit that lives upstairs. Yes, I will have another place to live. Provided of course, that I can save enough money. I need to stop giving Sarah money. I need to cut back on my expenses here.

I need to resist buying a shotgun, and blasting the fuck out of the people upstairs. As they continue to make noise, walk around, creaking floorboards, and just being a fucking nuisance at every chance they get. Just know that soon, you will be able to move on to another place.

Another place that does not have an upstairs neighbor that doesn't give a shit about anyone but themselves. Just know, that soon you will be rid of this ridiculous fucking company that wants to charge you $750 a month just to live in the same shit hole. 

Fuck! I can hear the upstairs neighbors walking around right now. They don't give a fuck about anyone. Creaking floorboards, walking hard. And just not giving a shit about anyone but themselves. That's the way it has been for years. And I'm not going to live with it anymore.

I cannot take a stand. Because there is nothing I can do. Apparently, they have every fucking right to make as much fucking noise as they want to upstairs. And I cannot do anything about it. They rule the fucking world, apparently. 🙄

Stephen

In With The New

It's been two days now, since I started driving truck 120. It is a brand new dump truck. And, of course, it's going to have some problems that need to be fixed. Because, just like every other production factory, they don't always use high-end parts. So that they can still sell a decent dump truck, but keep the costs down. And so, on the second day of driving the truck, a brake line gets a hole in it, because it was rubbing up against the edge of a steel plate in the back of the truck. And so, now the truck is parked at the mechanics shop, and the mechanics will come in on Monday and fix the problem.

On a lighter note, on my first day of driving the truck, I was parking the truck and getting out of the truck, at the end of the day, and one of my coworkers, who is fairly new to the company, got all excited, and said wow! You have the new truck! I said yeah! He said, so you really are important here. Irreplaceable! As one might say.  I said yeah, you could say that. 🙂

And so, he shook my hand and congratulated me. And I explained to him that this is nothing new to me. Really, the last truck I drove was brand new when I started driving it too. Truck 112 was brand new, 2 years ago, when I started driving it. And so, you can say that I am getting a new truck every two years.  He smiled and looked upon me as one of the higher-ups of the company. But, really, I am just a dependable, reliable, and really good driver. And the company knows that.

Out with the old

In with the new

I come to work on time everyday, for years and years, and I do my job well and properly. I'm friendly and respectful, and intelligent and I make really good decisions. And Bob's your uncle. If you don't know what "Bob's your uncle" means. It is a common phrase used in the UK that means "and there you have it"  Just to be clear, I am not in the United Kingdom , nor have I ever been in the UK. But, I do enjoy using the phrase. 

Stephen